christina ricci is in ally macbeal and she is just fabulous!!! i grew up being told that i look like her and i feel connected to her. (yah it's pathetic) she's just a lot skinnier which made her forehead a lot more prominent. but she can carry it. and so can i, proud to say.

i met sheila's friend jaz and well, he's fun. he just seems well, gay. and we told him that! he asked for proof of course and i can't give him any. i guess he's a lot like alvin. alvin's not gay but i think he's really close to being one. gosh! what am i saying??? well, anyway, i don't really have any problems dealing members of the "third sex" as long as they're cool to br with.

charelle's my angel!!! i won't be able to enrol for this sem and i refuse to be a bum. she might get me into their company!!! it's a call center something.THAT is my pending problem. i'm not quite sure about the job description. i don't even know what to put in my resume. i am such a loser. a professionally virgin. i should have sent it today and i would've been called in by next week. oh well, just keep hoping and praying!!!

i am reduced to poverty by my poverty. or maybe it is i who hamper myself from growing into the person i wanted to be for so long. mama always tells me that im rushing into experiencing things i shouldn't be experiencing yet. that's why i feel i have a lot of problems at hand. but, hey, i'm just exposed to stuff a normal college kid is supposed to be exposed to. and i'm glad i can handle them much better than some gray-haired people. in friendster, a couple of people's testimonial about me are conflicting. one says i think like a child though i act all grown-up while another says i have a matured brain though i act all childlike. i wonder who's telling the truth. all i know is, i can handle ANYTHING as long as i don't have to face it alone. maybe that's why being out of school doesn't quite sound too bad. i've been an idealistic loser for too long. i mean not all high school graduate gets to finish college as well. does that mean they are reduced to poverty for the rest of their lives? perhaps only those who choose to be. and i refuse to. if my parents can't afford to support me get the hell out of the burden of tight belts, then it's just me, myself and i. i have too much to waste.  not to brag, an aptitude test shows that i have superior I.Q. and not a lot are blessed with that. studying in U.P. was like a splash of cold water from the delusions i had growing up in discriminatory private sectarian schools. damn them righteous people.